so about a year and 3 months ago a met a lady who i became friends with through an iphone app we played a neat game called papaya farm she went on a chat and asked for some help and i decided to help her out. well i saw on her profile she had a son and what not and we just talked about that she wouldnt really talk about her husband but yeah i knew she was married we would talk about stupid little things and i would ask her how baby boy was and how she was and she told me about her problems with her marriage and we kinda got a bit closer. earlier this year we kinda kicked it into affair mode which i know is bad but thing was we never did anything and we never saw each other the feelings were there and still are cause i love her to death and want nothing but the best for her and she says the same to me anyway, i called her one night when her husband wasnt around and we were just talkin about January which she had plans to file for divorce and we were talking about getting together and wanting to kinda do it right even thought we messed up to begin with. well he found out and you know he was all mad even though he didnt treat his wife right and what not i understand that well she has someone who cares about her deeply and she cares just as much about them.
she left and is not at her moms and going through the drama of this and well im here studying to become a nurse and making something out of my life. i know its stupid caring for someone you havent met before but its also amazing just to have someone who cares about you and what you are not what you look like or how much money you have and well you know like most people today.
i know we messed up and we are paying for it sometimes i feel like i should just drop out of the picture but she has no intentions of going back with him i want to stay and ride this out and hope to be happy which is why i found this forum looking for some saints to pray to and hope that everything works out for the both of us even if we arent together, in all honesty i just want some advice and help cause man i feel so rotten inside for what happened and i feel bad for her son even though he just turned 2 its a nasty feeling cause yeah i pretty much became a home wrecker and i carry that weight alone.
so please gimme all the advice you can anything is worth it to me cause i feel like im just drowning in quicksand thinking about what a rotten jerk i am and how well i could have avoided everything and just held off till she was single and ready to start something new