ellietrish wrote:
That's a cool blog, CD. I've book marked it.
An experience I had back in 2008-ish has become central to my life. For whatever reason, the thought crossed my mind "what if there is no God?"
The thought took on a life of its own and later in the night I inwardly started to spiral out of control with the fear that I am completely alone and just the result of random events. It was terrifying and went on for about 2 hours in which time I prayed the rosary and tried to distract myself to no avail.
I felt I was falling and losing myself and finally just said to God I know you are there, please save me. That's when a 'hand' scooped down and lifted me out of that most terrifying anti room of Hell.
Since that time I've tried to understand where that 'hand' came from and realised that everything we know to exist, has come about through a process of creation. By virtue of that there must have been some initiator of this process. Something started this process. What I experienced with the 'hand' was care and safety and certainty. It was similar to how a small child would feel to be rescued by her Daddy.
It wasn't until I did the Spiritual Exercises in '11, that I made the connection that hang on! That must have been God. I know. I'm a slow learner. I seem to have just always thought God to be far more distant than that.
On that count, I no longer have any fears in that depth of my being. God is very close to His people and He does know us each by name and love us as His beloved children.
I have a special fire in my heart to pray for atheists these days. It's distressing to know that this thought that there is no God weighs on some people philosophically.
ellietrish, this is a great example of what I am talking about! We believe there are angels who are given too us. You just gave a great example of how God does work. Hang tough!
