Speak for yourself. I enjoy getting older. I am 67, and I do NOT consider myself old yet.
As long as I am "looking at the grass from the right side", I plan on using my brain, and enjoying life as much as I possibly can. Yes, some of the parts are failing, but so what. If you have a 60 year old car, you would be replacing the shocks (knees), the ball joints (hips), repairing the engine (the heart), maybe the transmission would be a little sticky (the brain), but you sure would give up on it, would you?
Be thankful that you live in an era where so many parts CAN be replaced.
I praise God every day that i can still function, that I can still love my wife, and that I can still be fairly active. I have to take heavy duty pain medication (Hydrocodone 7.5/500, 6tablets a day), but since the alternative to that would have been dying in Vietnam, I prefer to take the medication.
My wife sustained a severe multi-level spinal cord injury at the age of 19. She has severe arrachnoiditis, which causes her very severe pain ALL THE TIME. She has an implanted medication pump, that put Dilaudid directly into her spinal canal, and she has to take oral Morphine for break through pain. She has been in a wheelchair for 43 years now, and has to use a massive power chair, that tilts way back, for some comfort.
Most people would never know that she has pain at all. She CHOOSES to live her life as fully as possible. We go TENT camping, she loves to go on trails (I put her in a manual wheelchair, and off we go), she loves fishing, boating, traveling, and she is VERY active at church and in our community. She sings in the Choir and she lectors. She mentors teens, and she also substitute teaches (she was my daughter's teacher, and they introduced us, encouraged me to marry her, and they asked her to adopt them).
You have a choice about how you look at your life. I learned from my wife to not (censored) and moan about this and that. One of our friends asked her once, "With your pain and disability, how can you be so cheerful?"
Her response knocked me back, and made me think and change MY attitude.
She said, "No matter what I do, it hurts. I can stay in bed, and it will still hurt. I can sit in a recliner, and it still hurts. So, I choose to enjoy life as much as possible, and ignore the pain as much as I can. It's a choice, one that I make every day when I wake up. Once in a while, I give in to the pain, and I spend a day in bed. But that is always miserable, so for the most part, I would rather enjoy everything in life, even if it does cause increased pain. That's what my medication is for, to enable me to LIVE, and not to vegetate."
So, instead of worrying about what's failing, consider changing your option to remembering what is still working, and using everything you have, every day.
The Old Medic
Retired Clinical Psychologist and Rehabilitation Counselor
Former Sergeant First Class, U.S. Army (1959-1969)